Ok, about a year ago I was downloading porn from Limewire on my computer. first was regular porn then I saw LS models. I downloaded them some of them, deleted most of them from Limewire almost as soon as I downloaded them. Some I had on there maybe a couple of minutes or an hr. Hopefully not much longer. But, I dont know if anyone uploaded them from me. But i had them on my hard drive for a couple days. I honestly deleted them a couple of days later. Some I kept a little longer but not much because my concious was weighing heavily on me. My guilty concious was kicking in and I was realizing the true nature of what I was doing. But that is all it seems its gonna take to send me away for 20 years of my life. Stupidest thing I have ever done. So I have deleted them all from my computer. Bought Wipedrive for 40 bucks and cleaned my computer twice. Will never make that mistake again. I hopefully have deleted ANY evidence of me having them. I downloaded them around a year ago and have been waiting for that knock to wake me up in the morning to take my computer and all my dads computer stuff. He would KILL me if I did that to him. Im soo scared, even to this minute im scared they are coming after me. Im waiting for that knock on my door. What got me going latelywas an article in the paper about how up to 800 people are downloading CP at any given minute in our city and that they are, seemingly cracking down on them! But it takes time and money, and they are behind like 16 to 18 months or something. I brazenly downloaded CP around a year ago and have been scared straight ever since. I dont want to go to prison for this and I dont want to keep worrying like I am. I seriously because of this, take in moments of my life as they happen and just try to soak them in, such as the love of my father to me, or having a good time with my friends. But then realize that this all could be wiped away by this. Stupid downloads. Im going back to college in the fall, starting a good job, but this is almost to much to bear on my mind. Its almost worse then getting caught because then it wouldnt feel like I was running from something. But the clock keeps ticking till when i get that knock. I wish that there was a way to somehow clear yourself for stupidy. Like, admit your wrong doing and do like 50 hrs of community service or something, to help clear your concious and let you get on with your life. I know what I did was wrong, now, anyway and to be honest, at the time of downloading them I thought of it as like no big deal of what I was doing. I even got some weird one too that had pics of inmates, scary ones, and some writing. I dont remember really what it was but I was scared instantaneously and thought my life was ruined. I still do. I dont know WHAT I was doing when i did this but thought that i couldnt get caught. I feel I could write a book about this but it doesnt matter. All that matters is I could do BIG time and people will have no remorse for my actions.